4:45 p.m. - 2010-12-31
2010
2010. what can i say about this year?. it has been a year full of emotions, a year full of happiness but yet a year full of pain and self discovery...missed attempts of sef discovery. last year i said that this was going to be the year that i will find myslef, a year that i will work hard and be who i want to be. the truth is i still don't know who i want to be...or who i was...or who i am. this year has been a year that i have questioned myself many times about who i am and my personality, but everytime i ask myself i get more confused.this year i have been knocked back and then knocked forward. i have been given the responsibility that i never even wanted. i have been given a chance to be the best i can be and th truth is i want to. this year i have been an extra in a film and then all of a sudden a main character in a future school play. i sit down and ask myslef how the hell did i go from being an extra to being alice in alice in wonderland?. one minute i am being told i haven't got the part of a film and the next my drama teacher chooses me to be the lead of a play. i'm so confused about my drama talent, i mean if i got the part of alice there must be SOMETHING good that they see in me right? all my life i have underestimated myself and now i am supposed to show that i am full of confidence. how am i going to be able to do that?. this year has been interesting...very interesting. the most worrying thing is that next year is going to be a sequel of this year and i am scared of the outcome. i guess i am gonna have to take whatever's been given to me and grab it by the throat. i can survive in this life. i was born with a shitshield and i am gonna die with a shitshield.
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